Life is in limbo
now, a kind of living purgatory. I’ve done all that I can do. All I can do now
is wait … for someone who loves me, and has the same desire for me.
Buddhists’ teach
that suffering is the result of our desires. There is much truth to this.
Although I am not sure it is as absolute as purported. The Bible speaks of “Hope deferred” resulting
in the same condition, but once realized as being a fountain of life. I use my
own words here.So I wait and hope, believing to sometime “know” that which is hoped for.
And where two or more agree “It shall be done”.
I am sitting on a
bench, waiting for a bus. Not knowing whether it is on time, running late, or
detoured.
Some can relate. Many
maybe most just don’t get it and haven’t got a clue. When you “get it” you have
begun to “think” and your mind and cognitive resources have begun to enter
dimensions of reality transcending material limits. But this is only the
beginning. Spiritual exercise is requisite to grow and there are few willing to
accept the work and responsibility of associated character which is Christ. Not
egoist altruism, but the manifestation of life transcendent to “monkey brains”,
the material reflection, imperfect and pervasive, the only reality most can
consider.
I have found that the Church, though believing and
attempting to be faithful to the teachings of Christ have misconstrued the
concept of the “new birth”, to be born again. It is filled with animalistic
contrivances, minds materially bound. Thinking patterns and reliance on thought
forms learned over years, centuries and millennia. Transferred one generation
to the next, and compounded error upon error.
Bob Dylan expressed a concept of thought which needs to be realized.
He said “I’m gonna change my way of thinking”. I’m not sure he realized the
depth of his statement. But that is exactly what the Church has failed to do.
Si, or rather “sins” are most often reduced to our behaviors
… alcohol, drugs, illicit sex, theft, attitudes of anger which manifest as
murder and every other anti-social behavior. We are told it is of these and the
like we must repent. But we have lost the meaning of “repentance”, metanoia. We
repent, we commit to change our “evil ways”, but we have missed it. We are
still thinking, relying on thought forms we have been taught which too often
are unable to relate and transcend the material. We are stuck, for all
practical purposes led by blind leaders who have never actually experienced the
reality of life beyond the here and now. We have not “changed our way of
thinking”, we have “monkey brains”. And do not think that this is a criticism
of the Church only. It is applies to any and all stuck in the rut of material
reality, atheist, pagan believer alike.
“God”, the word, like so many others which infest the
religious Christian vocabulary, has lost its meaning, not being realized and
experienced as reported in the life of the man known as “Jesus” the Christ. Not
that we do not have the resources to “know”, but the corporate entity calling
itself the Church as a matter of self-preservation remolded and redefined what
it could not comprehend, could not comprehend because minds or ways of thinking
had not changed. Altruistic notions, born out of materialistic religious forms,
are substituted for the real, a “real” that cannot be manufactured and is not a
product of natural human intelligence, but rather a transcendent enlightenment,
possibly realized as that of the unconscious … the Self. That which is in us,
and of us, and all that is … The divine life that connects us all and
everything, but we, for the most part, have been taught otherwise, such is an
illusion and not real, it does not have material objectivity. We have lost the
reality of the “spiritual”. If it is not literally materially based, it is not
real. We have confused the illusion of the material as the only reality which
exists. It does exist, but it is not all that exists, not even close. It is a
reflection, and each one’s perception is unique, and subjective and
unverifiable, not in any absolute sense. And some see and perceive more than
others, but most remain satisfied experiencing and knowing only what may be
understood as the lowest common denominator. And we call ourselves the “Church”.
This is a reality I question.
